what to do when my mom wont get me therapy/medications for anxiety & agoraphobia?
April 4th, 2010
Sara asked:
okay, so i definitely have had anxiety & agoraphobia for at least 3 years. i have all of the symptoms. but what makes it worse is that im a performer (musician.) whenever i play solos or perform in a band, i shake uncontrollably. my heart palpitates, and i get dizzy. its been getting worse lately though, today in band in the peice right as my solo came up…i just got up and went to the bathroom. im so embarrassed about this but i wasnt even thinking. i just had a panic attack. so since ive realized this is getting worse and worse, i asked my mom if i could get therapy and try prescription mediactions because the homeopathic ones arent doing a thing. she thinks im just being dramatic and that i have to take deep breaths, but she DOESNT understand! she was being really rude and unhelpful and made me feel like i want to be seen as this way, when thats the opposite. i just want help, and its not something deep breathing and yoga will cure! ive tried. i really need help and im scared about how much worse this will get. i already dont go in public to anywhere but school because of the fear of seeing people i know and not being able to escape when i do, and i want to homeschool SO badly to get away from everyone. i have thoughts of ending my life and what would happen, and i only sleep about an hour a night because im up all night crying about everything that is going wrong. does anyone have some advice for me, or personal experiences? thank you very much.
Deirdre
okay, so i definitely have had anxiety & agoraphobia for at least 3 years. i have all of the symptoms. but what makes it worse is that im a performer (musician.) whenever i play solos or perform in a band, i shake uncontrollably. my heart palpitates, and i get dizzy. its been getting worse lately though, today in band in the peice right as my solo came up…i just got up and went to the bathroom. im so embarrassed about this but i wasnt even thinking. i just had a panic attack. so since ive realized this is getting worse and worse, i asked my mom if i could get therapy and try prescription mediactions because the homeopathic ones arent doing a thing. she thinks im just being dramatic and that i have to take deep breaths, but she DOESNT understand! she was being really rude and unhelpful and made me feel like i want to be seen as this way, when thats the opposite. i just want help, and its not something deep breathing and yoga will cure! ive tried. i really need help and im scared about how much worse this will get. i already dont go in public to anywhere but school because of the fear of seeing people i know and not being able to escape when i do, and i want to homeschool SO badly to get away from everyone. i have thoughts of ending my life and what would happen, and i only sleep about an hour a night because im up all night crying about everything that is going wrong. does anyone have some advice for me, or personal experiences? thank you very much.
Deirdre
Categories: Mental Health | Tags: Medications For Anxiety, Mom | 8 Comments
