Please diagnose my symptoms please?
June 30th, 2010
I am a 38 year old male. Healthy for all intents and purposes. I am 5’8″ and 145 lbs. I eat pretty well, and exercise once or twice a week.
Here’s the deal. I used to drink a couple nights a week and drink good, I mean like get really drunk. I have experimented and used small amounts of ecstasy and cocaine with alcohol in my late twenties to early 30′s. I haven’t used ecstasy for at least 4 years and I very very rarely do a line here and there. It’s just not for me anymore. I very rarely drink now, since about 2 years ago. maybe about once every 4 months I get liquored at some special event.
Here is the medical breakdown. I have a stressful job. Very stressful. Lately I have been having more abdominal discomfort, like a nagging feeling, I sometimes feel dizzy like I’m going to pass out. I eat pretty normal. I didn’t used to drink a lot of water, but now I make myself. Water was not a part of my diet for a long long time. I just **** the taste of it and I urinate all the time, too much. Anxiety has been coming upon me more and more lately. I have a lack of focus and sometimes muscle pains in the muscles next to my scapula on my left side. Sometimes if I lay the wrong way on an arm or leg it falls asleep faster than normal. I also have an upper extremity hemmangioma on my left hand that I’ve had there since childhood. It has never hurt, and always been deemed cosmetic. It now is giving me some sort of discomfort from time to time.
On a lesser note, as I am getting a little older, I am ********* a lot, I mean a lot. Every half hour. But not much comes out. And the stream is kind of weak.
I have a doctors appointment in a few weeks to get a check up, but of course I am neurotic and am worrying about stuff all the time. I am one of those people that can’t control the worry. Almost to the point where I think I may need to talk to a head doctor and get some anti-anxiety medications. If not, I could end up getting fired.
I have an extreme phobia to needles which has always kept me from getting medical treatment. I even needed stitches one time and a nurse that was on scene at the event, butterflied my gash on my leg and now there is a huge scar. I literally cannot go to the doctors because of this phobia. I have to now. I live alone and I am afraid to pass out or have a heart attack from stress and not have anyone at home to help me. I actually was awakened the night before a big meeting that I was worried about with some pains in my chest. I had no other symptoms of heart attack next to that, so I stayed awake and drank some chamomile tea for the anxiety and didn’t go back to sleep on purpose.
I know I sound neurotic, but this fear just has me petrified and now I can’t avoid it anymore. Am I just driving myself crazy? Reading all above, what would you say?
On a side note. I have had anxiety lately that has caused me to get a couple of xanax from my neighbor, which I have done on a few occassions before and it helped me immensely. Most of the symptoms went away. I somehow don’t see doctors prescribing xanax much anymore and I have heard nightmare stories about Lexipro and other anti anxiety meds. I’ve altered my diet to help as well. For some reason I can’t get rid of the nagging feeling in my gut ever. It feels like a dull burning discomfort. Never sharp pains. Thanks all so far. Appreciated.
Tram
Categories: Heart Diseases | Tags: 4 Months, Phobia, Wrong Way | 4 Comments
