It’s not “social awkwardness”, it’s not “social anxiety”, it’s just.I don’t know. But.can it be cured?
May 29th, 2010
Everywhere I go I just feel self-conscious and my head really hurts, and I’m just plain uncomfortable. But people say I’m not awkward because then I’d be like *start doing a hunchback of notre dame impression*. Ok so, even if I am normal and not awkward, I still feel it – I feel so horrid I just want to kill myself. It has caused (since being a teenager and I’m currently 17) so much psychological pain it’s unbelievable and I have a burning hatred for myself.
Well, anyway, I know how I act – quiet. I’m just quiet and make no friends due to that. No one notices me at college despite working in a band as the drummer. I also blew every mind in the college when I performed by playing with my teeth in the theatre, but that just goes to show that people only notice my musical talent.
I’m sweet, polite and humble – in other words, a sad loner. This causes suicidal tendencies. I wish I was ordinary. That way, I will have a chance at having a girlfriend, and one day a wife and kids.
Even if I am normal, I still feel terrible everywhere I go. Can I cure this mental awkwardness that no one else has? Or am I just, like some people (e.g. Michael Jackson, Gandhi, Bin Laden……..), a sleepy, quiet and introverted sweetheart, as opposed to your ordinary fun-loving manly hunk you are willing to lose your virginity to?
QUESTION: What is it and can it be cured?
Diana
Categories: Psychology | Tags: Drummer, Hunchback Of Notre, Psychological Pain
Kimberly
Join a debate club or Toastmasters.
Michelle
Clearly your root stress is to girls and how they view you. Its ok a lot of people have issues exactly like yours. You seem to have the social skills to be different then the hunchback. Still you clearly have a form of social anxiety. Its suggested to talk to someone, anyone to get some help dealing with it. You said you would kill yourself over it and joking or not its still something you clearly say is something to want to fix. You can goto a therapist or some colleges have councelers to help you out or give your sources to help you out.
If you want help with women then, dont go for the girl you know doesnt like the sweet guys. Go for one that does. Ive noticed that some people have a hard time understanding and acknowledging what each girl is looking for. You can have a christian girl that just wants to have ***. You can have a party girl that just wants to date. The term badgirlfriend isnt neccessarily a negative statement. Im a bad tennis player. Anyhow I went on a tangent there. Generally with the ladies look for what their all about and choose a battleplan from their.